Okay...  I keep on runing into these people who have learned what I want to learn. About a year ago, I met a guy named Rick Koerber and he seemed like a normal guy.  About 6 months later, I find out he's a freaking multi-millionarie.  I also find out that he teaches how he did it, and so I learn about it.  It seems really legit...

I just got back from a wonderful evening spent with my wife, Shaun, Tiffy, Shane, and Becca.  We went to Weber State to see the annual drum core competition. Let me just say....  Amazing.  Yup...  Amazing....  That's what it was. It also got me to thinking about a lot of things.  For some reason lots of normal things...

I was wandering around the net to shake off the daily grind, when I came upon this site . The poem made me think, and thinking is a pretty good thing.  So, in response to his poem, I wrote the poem "To Write".  I was suprised at how fast it came, and pretty freely, too.  Anyway... It's always a treat to find good poetry....

To write... Feeling as though worthlessness is she who has found me... The block of feeling sinks deeper into an endless ocean... of creative decay. Yes, to write is to live. But to live defines my weakness my misunderstanding my inadequacy my wretched mind my life. nevertheless! to write... ..is to live... ...and I shall live....

Today I needed to encode a movie I bought on Friday (Fearless), and I wanted to encode it in its native language, but have english subtitles.  The command I ended up using was this: transcode -a 0 -i Fearless.dump -M 2 -w 2200,250,100 -A -N 0x2000 -y xvid -o Fearless.avi -Z 854x480 -J extsub=2:0:0:0:0:100:255:2:3 The "a" takes care...

Wow, my first journal entry in this cool journaling dealio.   I just want to say that I am SO STOKED that Drum Corps is finally come to Utah again!  Jason and my cousin Shane and a few others will be heading over to Ogden this monday night for the big event.  The corps that I marched with back in 1987 will be hosting t...

"What is a motorcycle doing in *this*?", I thought as I continued upward through the winding Spanish Fork canyon.   It wasn't so much that a motorcycle was in this particular canyon, but rather in the canyon during one of the 3 most torrential downpours I've seen during my lifetime. I was coming home from work today when about ...

Holy cow, there's some weird crap on the Internet. I was just sifting through Youtube for some comic relief from the daily grind when I wondered where in the world Marilyn Manson had gone.  When I was younger, I was pretty much disgusted and amazed at the slim amount of MM media I was exposed to.  I haven't heard anything about him for y...

I've just gotta say....  WHAT THE %$@! ???? At work, I need to have a windows box along side my gentoo installation, so I can easily view stuff on IE 6,7,etc...  Well...  I downloaded a PDF and thought to myself, "Gee, it'd be nice to view this PDF I just downloaded..."  So, I go to Adobe.com and try to download their...

Well... I just spent the last 3 hours re-vamping around 300 lines of code for ilovemyjournal.com.  Hopefully, I've made it a lot more search-engine friendly for people who want to share their blogs, without compromising security any security. Being that this is also the 24th of July, I'm also very grateful for the pioneers, and everything the...

I hate life sometimes i swear.Yesterday i was riding my stupid  bike......which i shouldnt have been doing cause it has 2 flat wheels and when i went to turn around my house i hit a rock or something and the handle bar slipped out of my hand and i lost balence and fell when i fell i landed on the handle bar and i have a hard time walking cause...

To begin, quite honestly, let me say this: Without OpenOffice.org, using Linux in a professional environment (which I have been doing now for 4 straight years across 4 different companies) would have been, and would currently be, much more difficult at the very least. Those who have desk jobs, and more specifically programming jobs, know how...

Friday December 3, 2010 Today was filled with the usually chore, practicing for the Christmas Cantada, and puttting up the Christmas tree. Finally! me and my family put up our tree. We usually do it after Thanksgiving but we where a little late. You know. The more the years go by the faster Christmas seems to come. I can remeber when I was a litt...

I almost didn't post anything tonight..... But... I've gotta. One thing which seems to irritate me quite a bit is this phenomenon among people of my faith which drives them to make some pseudo-philosophical yet some how not quite doctrinally correct quote and then follow it by "I'm sure it's in the scriptures. I just read it. I swear. " or, "I'...

Anyone who knows what Helaman 12 is all about is probably wondering how in the world I could label this chapter as "Happiness".  hehe... Yesterday, I was having a very interesting conversation about happiness with a dear friend of mine, and oddly enough, today's chapter was Helaman 12, which of course, talks all about the frailties...

While Elder Scott was talking about the justice of the Father, I couldn't help but remember a very simple conversation I had with a childhood friend named Jared Peck. He was talking about scenarios of people hurting the ones he loved, and how he would get back at them.  I sat and made the required remarks such as, "oh", and "y...

  Poetry by Kelly Miller   THis is dedicated to my son Shawn VanWagen who left on his mission in 2005 and that next week I started writing poetry. It has been a big part of my life since and has kept me very busy.  Also, to President Hinckley and his challenge for the members to read the book of mormon. and to Bernice Hutchenson w...

Holy cow.  My journal is done.  I still can’t believe it.  Wowza. I started writing in my journal every day on January 1st, 1990.  About ten years later, I found that I had journals scattered all over the place, and with my technical background - I hated the disorganization of something that might be precious someday.&nb...

It seems to me like this chapter has a very deep meaning, but I couldn't quite get it this time. The whole chapter is about making covenants, and becoming a child of Christ. It's interesting that after verses 2, 3, and 4, the last word on verse 4 is "joy".  After they had heard the word of God, had their hearts changed through ...

The first verse which caught me in the reading of the last half of 2nd Nephi 9 was verse 39. The question came to mind:  "Why would God need to have us "remember" the awfulness of sin?" ...  Well...  The answer is quite simple, really.  Because Satan laces all sorts of lies within the temptation of sin.&nbs...

So today has been about like my normal day..... But Johnny Depp's last post to me has left me kinda sad! Talking to him has been rough on me, 'cuz teh most famous person I talk to is the stake pres. But Johnny is a huge movie star and having him talk to me is kinda hard. My hands don't work when I try to reply to him, I can't spell, and what do I e...

It's a new day, And so I must fight. Fight for my right live! As time gose on, I know my suffering will be small. But why must I stuggle at all? Time will go on, And soon I'll be, Just another scar on your heart. Am I so  alone? My sadness and pain, I'll never show. But will time go on for me? Can there be light behind my sorrow...

Well, the auction went real well! We made more then enough money for camps. Which by the way I am going to Girls camp. Their bumping me up a year so I'll be with my own age group.  At the auction I sold myself three times, each time was funny. Because the first I got up on the stand, heard the anounser say " Here is a very pretty young l...

This weekend is a powwow, everybody knows I'm gonna be there! I'll be dacning until my legs give out, then I'll dance some more! Fancy shawl isthe BEST kinda of dance, I 'm  so able to be me and to be free , the feeling of the wind  in my hair as I bounce of the ground.... It almost feels like heaven! This year knowing no was likely to ...

One day along time ago, Before the world began A plan was given to each of us It was placed in our willing hands   There were two parts to this plan One was for all the world The other plan was just for us About our life and what was in store   This first plan included a Savior Jesus Christ, our brother He will come to earth...

The Powwow was great. Just what I needed, I spent a lot of time thinking and relaxing and getting over all the offel things that've happend! I danced and with each step I released my pain. It was truely amazing, but that's not what I want to talk about.. Not yet any way! So this is how my story starts right, fridaynight I set up camp and then sa...

A little bit ago i was checking out a 'community' site that has something to do with "LDS" and "Freedom", and i saw the most ridiculous thing ... a whole topic based on "does president Monson really know what happened on 9/11"? essentially, those posting were of the "9/11 was an inside job" conspiracy - tha...

So I'm a writer rite, well last night I was on my bed and I wrote this poem. I normaly go to Brooke or Sara about my poems but their kinda hard to get ahold of these days.  If there might be any other people who write poems and are good can you tell me this makes any since at all?   Sweet nothings To see your face, I'd give the world...

I wrote this the otherday. It's not really what I write a lot of, so I ain't too sure about it. Let me know what you think please.   I'm gonna let my hair fall down, Sit and watch the rain Come around. Each drop is a beautiful sound... Shut my eyes so My heart can see, All that your love dose to me. Take my heart and ...

I was talking to Annie yesterday and she reminded me that I need to get some pictures of Sam up here.  Here are just two of him at 1 month old.  He will be two months old this Friday and I will have more posted then, so keep checking.  Cecilia took one of him smiling that I will post on Friday too.  so cute!   ...