Okay...  I keep on runing into these people who have learned what I want to learn. About a year ago, I met a guy named Rick Koerber and he seemed like a normal guy.  About 6 months later, I find out he's a freaking multi-millionarie.  I also find out that he teaches how he did it, and so I learn about it.  It seems really legit...

I just got back from a wonderful evening spent with my wife, Shaun, Tiffy, Shane, and Becca.  We went to Weber State to see the annual drum core competition. Let me just say....  Amazing.  Yup...  Amazing....  That's what it was. It also got me to thinking about a lot of things.  For some reason lots of normal things...

I was wandering around the net to shake off the daily grind, when I came upon this site . The poem made me think, and thinking is a pretty good thing.  So, in response to his poem, I wrote the poem "To Write".  I was suprised at how fast it came, and pretty freely, too.  Anyway... It's always a treat to find good poetry....

To write... Feeling as though worthlessness is she who has found me... The block of feeling sinks deeper into an endless ocean... of creative decay. Yes, to write is to live. But to live defines my weakness my misunderstanding my inadequacy my wretched mind my life. nevertheless! to write... ..is to live... ...and I shall live....

Today I needed to encode a movie I bought on Friday (Fearless), and I wanted to encode it in its native language, but have english subtitles.  The command I ended up using was this: transcode -a 0 -i Fearless.dump -M 2 -w 2200,250,100 -A -N 0x2000 -y xvid -o Fearless.avi -Z 854x480 -J extsub=2:0:0:0:0:100:255:2:3 The "a" takes care...

Wow, my first journal entry in this cool journaling dealio.   I just want to say that I am SO STOKED that Drum Corps is finally come to Utah again!  Jason and my cousin Shane and a few others will be heading over to Ogden this monday night for the big event.  The corps that I marched with back in 1987 will be hosting t...

"What is a motorcycle doing in *this*?", I thought as I continued upward through the winding Spanish Fork canyon.   It wasn't so much that a motorcycle was in this particular canyon, but rather in the canyon during one of the 3 most torrential downpours I've seen during my lifetime. I was coming home from work today when about ...

Holy cow, there's some weird crap on the Internet. I was just sifting through Youtube for some comic relief from the daily grind when I wondered where in the world Marilyn Manson had gone.  When I was younger, I was pretty much disgusted and amazed at the slim amount of MM media I was exposed to.  I haven't heard anything about him for y...

I've just gotta say....  WHAT THE %$@! ???? At work, I need to have a windows box along side my gentoo installation, so I can easily view stuff on IE 6,7,etc...  Well...  I downloaded a PDF and thought to myself, "Gee, it'd be nice to view this PDF I just downloaded..."  So, I go to Adobe.com and try to download their...

Well... I just spent the last 3 hours re-vamping around 300 lines of code for ilovemyjournal.com.  Hopefully, I've made it a lot more search-engine friendly for people who want to share their blogs, without compromising security any security. Being that this is also the 24th of July, I'm also very grateful for the pioneers, and everything the...

Wow... I can't believe I'm still awake.  For future reference, the day after Thanksgiving is a day of pain.  It is a day of fear and dread.  But today was better. When I got married to my wonderful wife, she told me she would marry me on one condition.  Okay, okay... That's a lie.  But if I wrote down all the conditions u...

I almost didn't post anything tonight..... But... I've gotta. One thing which seems to irritate me quite a bit is this phenomenon among people of my faith which drives them to make some pseudo-philosophical yet some how not quite doctrinally correct quote and then follow it by "I'm sure it's in the scriptures. I just read it. I swear. " or, "I'...

This was in response to people NOT SUPPORTING OUR TROOPS AND VETERANS.  When the people calling our veterans scumbags and persecuting the people defending them - can defend our nation better than our veterans and soldiers, then they can say something.  and NOT BEFORE!!!! THE ARM OF OUR NATION! READ RIGHT NOW!!! and let me know wh...

I've been pretty much stuck 100% in the Linux world now for around 5 years.  I bought myself a Cowon iAudio X5 media player based on its compatibility with Linux (and its complete lack of anything DRM related) - and I've loved it for the 2.5 years I've had it. I also had a blackberry which I had used for 2 years, thanks to Nature's Way. ...

Today I had time to reflect on everything which happened this year.  I'll try my best to articulate my thoughts, though I'm not exactly sure what will turn up. 2007 was a year of goal making, goal breaking, and goal taking. I really hate to say this, in fact, I hesitate to even make mention of it, due to its total cliche, but it's really t...

Hmmm....  It's hard to write about something so wonderful when I'm not in the mood...  But I've found that when I feel like "blah", and I write about something wonderful, I usually am feeling closer to wonderful when I'm done... So, here goes. First off, I'm at work, so I don't have any pictures, but I'll update it when I get...

  this ones personal. I left the church after realizing that I am gay, and I don't want to change that. Lastnight. I do not believe in the Church's stance on homosexuality. Which is that you can overcome those temptations, that it is an awful sin, and as long as you don't act on it, youre okay. I really don't believe that God would make 10% of...

  Poetry by Kelly Miller   THis is dedicated to my son Shawn VanWagen who left on his mission in 2005 and that next week I started writing poetry. It has been a big part of my life since and has kept me very busy.  Also, to President Hinckley and his challenge for the members to read the book of mormon. and to Bernice Hutchenson w...

Okay.... Something weird is happening inside me. I feel a churning in my gut. I feel spindles on my skin... I feel hair growing out of my HEAD!!!!! Oh wait... Ummm.... No I don't. None of it is true. So..... I go to work today and I'm talking with Matt (the new developer, er... lead developer) and .... we're having a heart-to-heart and f...

Happy 4th of July to everyone! We finally finished mixing and mastering Ear Candy's debut single, Tell Me Why, and quite frankly, we've loved working on it here in the studio.  The finished copy can be heard in our samples section, and Ear Candy has made it freely available to anyone and everyone who would like a copy. Just let them know h...

Well, the auction went real well! We made more then enough money for camps. Which by the way I am going to Girls camp. Their bumping me up a year so I'll be with my own age group.  At the auction I sold myself three times, each time was funny. Because the first I got up on the stand, heard the anounser say " Here is a very pretty young l...

Hey Guys, Okay so its been a really really long time since I last wrote anything.  I just recently remembered my password and that is a really big part of my reason for not writing.  I know this is suppose to be like a diary (right or wrong?), but I would perfer to think that its more of a letter to a best friend (hope that don't sound ...

Merry Christmas Dear Latter-Day Saints   Merry Christmas I greet you wherever you may be as members of a church family Tonight we pay homage to our Lord. Born in a stable. Loved and adored.   He who'd been the creator of this earth. Condescended to a humble birth. And, thus we have the gift of Christmas. This the greatest of ...

Well today I woke up and got dressed and all ready for my date. Then my mom came in and told me that I was not going the date unless he called to ask me... So I pretty much gave up on that! Then my cell phone rings and he said that he called my house but my Pa was on the computer so it not ring, I talked to him about where he wanted to meet and whe...

This weekend is a powwow, everybody knows I'm gonna be there! I'll be dacning until my legs give out, then I'll dance some more! Fancy shawl isthe BEST kinda of dance, I 'm  so able to be me and to be free , the feeling of the wind  in my hair as I bounce of the ground.... It almost feels like heaven! This year knowing no was likely to ...

This is my new poem, I believe it or not was really trying to write a love poem. But I guess because something happend and I got upset just before writting, this what I got. So, yeah. Take a look at " Braking me" Feel free to tell me your thoughts please.   - - - Braking me - - - No longer your here, But my scars never leave. W...

So Anyone ever heard of Paul Michael Glaser? He is like the best actor! Well next to Johnny Depp. But any way my Pa loves him, in high school he and his best friend were called "Starsky and Hutch" because they acted so much like the real Starsky and hutch. My PA was Starsky, and to this day is called that! he owns all the old tv shows on ...

  The Power to Change Are there tears in me For who I want to be? Humbly in meek prayer, I'll extend all energy. With God's help I can abstain. A new life I can obtain. I will hold to the rod, With my life close to God Through His narrow paths I will trod.   Can these tears of mine Cleanse all my soul and mind? With the S...

Well, I thought I had more pictures of Sam, but I don't.  I will have to be better about taking more pictures of him.  There was a really cute one of him smiling, but it is on the other carmera.  Next post will have to be a smiling one of him.  Here is one new one of Sam with Luci and some other cute pictures of the kids. ...

I've been reading Matthew in seminary and have been understanding things so much better. My teacher has us write down what jumped out out at us and tell why, so I've been doing it and have learned a lot about myself! Each week I give him my papers and he reads them and gives them back, he writes notes on the side and tells me what he things about i...