A few days ago some things were said that hurt my feelings really really bad. Needls to say I was kinda down. I started believeing what was said and felt really worthless, I called that girl I talked about in the last blog not the crush one but the one before that. Well I called her and  just talked, turned out she was feeling kinda down too! ...

Ok, I'm all confused! Theres this boy, he's a year older then me and majorly hott!  About a year I met him and fell for him :-) as girls do lol but this guy was somthing... something amazing he was perfect, I'm only 15 but I knew how perfect he was. Well we e-mailed everyday and he called me a few times. But he gose to school and leavs kinda ...

mesa u said in ur last blog that u didnt feel like writing that best b a fase i wont let u quit cause u could become a really famouse poet so if u quit then i quit this site and wont tlak to u deal or no deal like the show christine p.s.i aint joking ill quit talking to u..........eventually.........hopefully..........maybe..........not.........

My best friend ever, She's more like a sister then a friend. She's kinda like the only friend I have here. I don't mean here here as in on this site, I mean like where I live. And she lives about 5 hours away from me. Well she's moving to this really really far away place, far enough I wont ge to see her again! I miss her so much..... But I'm worr...

WOW, feels like forever since I last came in here to write. My comp crashed and just now got back up. For now....  I am really glad that I've been able to talk to Christine, she's a really great girl!  I signed up for a website she sent me. I'm going to try and find her LOL I had a lot to write, but just don't feel much like doing it a...

ANOTHER DAY MY MIND IS GOING AT IT AGAIN. I HAVE BEEN BREAKING OUT IN RASHES LATELY, I FINALLY WENT TO THE DOCTOR.... AND I HAD CONTACT DERMITITIS FROM LATEX GLOVES, IT WAS A BUMMER, ANYWAY THEY GAVE ME STEROIDS AND IT JUST EMOTIONALLY MESSED ME UP I WOULD BE HAPPY THEN SAD, I WAS FREAKING OUT FOR A MINUTE. I HAVE BEEN STRESSED OUT ...

Today during gospel doctrine class, we got talking about gratitude, and there was an interesting question posed, which I hadn't considered.  It was incredibly vague, but sometimes those are the best questions to ask.  The question was simply, "What do you think of gratitude?" At first, I thought it was a horrible question, b...

Verse 7 caught my attention this time around.  The beginning of the verse is as follows: "And now, my sons, I would that ye should remember to search them diligently, that ye may profit thereby;" The context is referring to the scriptures the sons of King Benjamin had access to.  This verse reminds me quite a bit of Mosiah...

           I just had my patriarchal blessing done a few hours ago.  I'm excited about it and the things I was told, but it didn't say some things I wanted to hear.  I'm kind of just writing here to get some of my thoughts out in the open.  This is just basically just the beginning of...

Wow....  This is gonna be one of those entries which might just take up an entire novel, if I were to write down what I wish I could. To begin, yesterday Sarah and I went to Vegas to celebrate Shaun Roos's birthday. The whole kit-'n'-kaboodle began about a month ago when Tiffy, Shaun's girlfriend, emailed me asking me if I thought I coul...

Setting your heart upon the glory of the world has always seemed like a bad idea to me, but then again, for most of my life I've been kind of the odd-man-out.  heh..  My own siblings have mentioned to me that they "don't get me".  Most people would consider this a bad thing, but for me, it's been life.  The desire to &...

I've often wondered why this chapter isn't included in chapter 2.  They both seem to go on about the evils of Jacob's audience.  This chapter even goes further to say that the Lamanites at this time were more righteous than the Nephites because they have only one wife, and the husbands love their wives and children.  They also are wi...

I wrote for 2nd Nephi 6, that I was having a hard time understanding Isaiah.  Well...  This chapter is nothing but Isaiah, and I thought it was very beautiful. Verses 1-3 are poetry. I immediately thought of a person asking the question: "Where is the Lord now, during my time of suffering and trial?"... ...and this chapter...

I simply must blog about this - quickly. When I arrived home from a trip through some pretty insane snow tonight, I simply had to test a theory I had about my 2007 Mustang GT's headlights vs. fog-lights.  (Apart from the chance to drive like a maniac in the snow, which I absolutely love) So, I get my car going about 25 down a very lowly-li...

I love mythtv. Thank heavens for the wonderful, altruistic people who created such a fantastic program. I also love transcode and mplayer. Equally fantastic programs. Put em' all together and what do you get? An encoded library of your DVDs ready for viewing straight from your hard drive. Here's some tips I've found out. (actually, I'm w...

So I've been working on a lot of projects lately, but one I thought to be of particular note was the song "Blind World" by Lucid 8.  The song is well-made on a variety of levels, but one of the coolest aspects of this song is the way they presented it to me. Jonny (drummer for Lucid 8) came to me and asked if could incorporate an ...

I was just up holding you, Collin.  You awoke for some reason after we put you to bed, and I decided to be the one to go see what was the matter. As I picked up your stiff body, muscles taught by some uknown fear, I sensed a connection between you and I which I haven't felt before. You put your little head on my shoulder and continued to rid...

Well...  I just spent about 2 hours writing a how-to on going from an Nvidia-based graphics system in gentoo Linux to an ATI one, but I accidentally erased the whole thing, so I'm going to try my best to be patient and do it again. When I originally got the box for my new ATI Radeon HD4850 video card this morning, I was impressed even in the ...

 So...  I thought I'd be going to bed, but here I am. When the Spirit directed me to come down and write down my testimony, I wasn't (and still am not) quite sure what to write.  This certainly isn't due to a lack of testimony comparative to other times I've done this, but rather quite the exact opposite.  It is because my tes...

I read Mosiah 18 yesterday and found that due to the mindset I'm having now of an overall perspective, it was hard to get into all the details of what Alma was saying.  This is a great chapter for new members, or people who are trying to understand baptism. One question I have always had with this scripture is, "Where did Alma get the ...

Ya know, I love verse 6, and verses like it (2nd Nephi 4, for example).  The reason is quite simple. Sometimes it's hard to remember that prophets are people, too.  They're just subject to Satan's temptations and mistakes and errors and such as we are.  Verses like this remind me that they aren't perfect, and it brings them down to...

Why, oh why, did I create this site?  For those of you wondering what this site is all about, read on.  For those of you who couldn't care less, read on.  For those of you who enjoy reading my blog, or otherwise, read on.  Okay... That was stupid.  Ohwell... I Love My Journal (ILMJ) was originally created for one reason ...

The beginning of this talk was set by talking about the experience President Gordon B. Hinckley had as a deacon.  He spoke of the moving power of the men singing "Praise To The Man", at a Stake Priesthood Meeting. While reading that experience, my mind immediately turned back to a very similar experience I had when beginning my mis...

Chapter 29 of Alma is such a good chapter - on so many levels, too. How would it feel like to want the good of mankind so badly, that it caused you to take time to carve your feelings out in brass plates?  Putting all the doctrine of this wonderful chapter aside, the beginning verses give me a tiny glimpse into the type of desires living a p...

So... I just checked, and throughout all canonized scripture, know how many times the phrase "solemn mockery" is used?   Yup - you guessed it.  Once.  And it happens to refer to the baptizing of children.  For some reason, I think God dislikes this act a bit. Verse 14 seems kind of harsh, but if a person has nei...

It's been a long time since I have read the Book of Mormon.  Well, I decided to repent tonight and read where I left off at Mosiah. One scripture which always stands out to me in this chapter is the latter portion of verse 9.  King Benjamin is telling people how they should prepare themselves to hear his message, and thus he says: ...

Man... This past month has been a friggin' whirlwind.  I refuse to believe November is nearly gone. Anyway...  Jesse and I are almost done with our debut Christmas album, "Herod the Fink", and while recording the last drum session, I thought it might be cool to see what I look like when I play.  Well, as fate would have i...

I just finished reading the talk "My Soul Delighteth in the Things of the Lord", and it was a good talk. It made me think of my own upbringing, and the upbringing of my children.  I loved the following statement: "I delight that I am a daughter of Heavenly Father, who loves me. I learned of my divine identity in my earliest ...

Okay...  So Advanced Budget Studios had the opportunity last weekend to record a group which came from the Springville's Art City Music Fest, and due to time constraints, we really didn't get a very good tracking session.  We got some of Bethany's vocals, JT's acoustic guitar, Jake's bass, Dan's shredding guitar solo, and a very rough scr...

About 2 months ago, a great musician, designer, and friend sent me a new design idea for AdvancedBudgetStudios.com.  After getting various opinions, I decided to have a go at it.  Also, with all the free time I had during the holidays, I thought it would be a good time to get crackin'. So, without further ado, I present you the new and ...