A few days ago some things were said that hurt my feelings really really bad. Needls to say I was kinda down. I started believeing what was said and felt really worthless, I called that girl I talked about in the last blog not the crush one but the one before that. Well I called her and  just talked, turned out she was feeling kinda down too! ...

Ok, I'm all confused! Theres this boy, he's a year older then me and majorly hott!  About a year I met him and fell for him :-) as girls do lol but this guy was somthing... something amazing he was perfect, I'm only 15 but I knew how perfect he was. Well we e-mailed everyday and he called me a few times. But he gose to school and leavs kinda ...

mesa u said in ur last blog that u didnt feel like writing that best b a fase i wont let u quit cause u could become a really famouse poet so if u quit then i quit this site and wont tlak to u deal or no deal like the show christine p.s.i aint joking ill quit talking to u..........eventually.........hopefully..........maybe..........not.........

My best friend ever, She's more like a sister then a friend. She's kinda like the only friend I have here. I don't mean here here as in on this site, I mean like where I live. And she lives about 5 hours away from me. Well she's moving to this really really far away place, far enough I wont ge to see her again! I miss her so much..... But I'm worr...

WOW, feels like forever since I last came in here to write. My comp crashed and just now got back up. For now....  I am really glad that I've been able to talk to Christine, she's a really great girl!  I signed up for a website she sent me. I'm going to try and find her LOL I had a lot to write, but just don't feel much like doing it a...

ANOTHER DAY MY MIND IS GOING AT IT AGAIN. I HAVE BEEN BREAKING OUT IN RASHES LATELY, I FINALLY WENT TO THE DOCTOR.... AND I HAD CONTACT DERMITITIS FROM LATEX GLOVES, IT WAS A BUMMER, ANYWAY THEY GAVE ME STEROIDS AND IT JUST EMOTIONALLY MESSED ME UP I WOULD BE HAPPY THEN SAD, I WAS FREAKING OUT FOR A MINUTE. I HAVE BEEN STRESSED OUT ...

Today during gospel doctrine class, we got talking about gratitude, and there was an interesting question posed, which I hadn't considered.  It was incredibly vague, but sometimes those are the best questions to ask.  The question was simply, "What do you think of gratitude?" At first, I thought it was a horrible question, b...

Verse 7 caught my attention this time around.  The beginning of the verse is as follows: "And now, my sons, I would that ye should remember to search them diligently, that ye may profit thereby;" The context is referring to the scriptures the sons of King Benjamin had access to.  This verse reminds me quite a bit of Mosiah...

           I just had my patriarchal blessing done a few hours ago.  I'm excited about it and the things I was told, but it didn't say some things I wanted to hear.  I'm kind of just writing here to get some of my thoughts out in the open.  This is just basically just the beginning of...

Wow....  This is gonna be one of those entries which might just take up an entire novel, if I were to write down what I wish I could. To begin, yesterday Sarah and I went to Vegas to celebrate Shaun Roos's birthday. The whole kit-'n'-kaboodle began about a month ago when Tiffy, Shaun's girlfriend, emailed me asking me if I thought I coul...

Well...  I just spent about 2 hours writing a how-to on going from an Nvidia-based graphics system in gentoo Linux to an ATI one, but I accidentally erased the whole thing, so I'm going to try my best to be patient and do it again. When I originally got the box for my new ATI Radeon HD4850 video card this morning, I was impressed even in the ...

Setting your heart upon the glory of the world has always seemed like a bad idea to me, but then again, for most of my life I've been kind of the odd-man-out.  heh..  My own siblings have mentioned to me that they "don't get me".  Most people would consider this a bad thing, but for me, it's been life.  The desire to &...

Sometimes it doesnt seem like i have anyfriends at alll cause i always get ditched and ignored at school wen megan isnt there cause desie always seems to wanna hang wit the other ppl in our class then me cause she says me and megan are alot closer then me and her which is true but still.and i wish she could come stay wit me this weekend cause of my...

Well, I thought I had more pictures of Sam, but I don't.  I will have to be better about taking more pictures of him.  There was a really cute one of him smiling, but it is on the other carmera.  Next post will have to be a smiling one of him.  Here is one new one of Sam with Luci and some other cute pictures of the kids. ...

Here I Am New year in a new town, new state, new sisters and brothers in a new ward and I feel wonderful! To end the year 2009, in December I went to the Temple in North Houston and was so warmly embraced by the Holy Spirit I could hardly contain my excitement. Tomorrow, I make the first Temple trip in the New Year. And I am ecstatic! Last mont...

 Ya know..  I think the whole "sight" thing is over-rated.  "Dispute not because ye see not" just shouldn't be an issue.  Prime example is Laman and Lemuel.  They saw angels, and it didn't do jack-squat.  Personally, I believe the sense of the Spirit (as opposed to the sense of sight, or hearing, or...

I've just gotta say....  WHAT THE %$@! ???? At work, I need to have a windows box along side my gentoo installation, so I can easily view stuff on IE 6,7,etc...  Well...  I downloaded a PDF and thought to myself, "Gee, it'd be nice to view this PDF I just downloaded..."  So, I go to Adobe.com and try to download their...

The first thing I noticed this time, is that apparently, Helaman had never had any proof of the existence of the plates of gold Alma and the previous prophets were writing on.  Not entirely sure why that caught my fancy this time, but it did.  I guess keeping the historical records was a pretty sacred thing back then.  I wonder if th...

 Okay...  I've decided I'm going to get a little more serious about recording music.  I've had quite a few positive comments made about my recordings from 3rd parties, and over the years, I've enjoyed recording it more and more. So now, I'm here with approximately $200.00 to spend, and I think I'm going to get some overhead mics fo...

So, a few weeks ago, the studio acquired a Jackson electric guitar and didn't really have any experience with it.  So a good friend and client of the studio came in and messed around a bit with it, and using a great dual-mic technique to get the most out of the amp, we managed to get a very, very nice guitar tone out of it. Soon, it will be ...

Aside from being booked solid last week, Advanced Budget Studios has made some progress on the techinical side as well.  Up until now, we have only been able to handle 8 simultaneous streams of audio into the workstation, however, due to the success we've been having, we saw a need to upgrade.  We now have two M-audio delta 1010's synced ...

We've done it.  We've hit the mother load.  The golden goose has landed. I had the opportunity yesterday to work with one of the most talented musicians I've ever met.  It's somebody I've highly respected the past few years, and have wanted to work with ever since I heard him play.  He's largely unknown, and has requested me om...

  Poetry by Kelly Miller   THis is dedicated to my son Shawn VanWagen who left on his mission in 2005 and that next week I started writing poetry. It has been a big part of my life since and has kept me very busy.  Also, to President Hinckley and his challenge for the members to read the book of mormon. and to Bernice Hutchenson w...

Hehe.... According to this verse, I guess even Lamanites can learn! "Stand fast in the liberty wherewith God has made us free!" Yeah... I think I'm gonna have that made into a poster, and hang it on my wall or something. The big message of this chapter, and the few preceeding it, for me, would have to be "Rely on The Lord for y...

 If there is one thing throughout all eternity that I do *NOT* want to happen to me, is what happened to the Nephites in verse 15 of this chapter.  Having the Lord, God of this earth, proclaim, "Vengeance is mine, and I will repay", kind of makes the hair on my neck stand up.  The Lord makes good on all of his promises, and...

Man... I'm kicking myself right now for not taking a photo of this amazing musician, but I was way too interested in the music I was hearing to worry about silly cameras. Taylor Miller came in for a visit, and recorded 3 original songs tonight.  They have yet some proper embellishment to receive, but the tracks we got tonight were primo.&nbs...

Take a moment, now, and think about what you'd do if you had access to unlimited funds, and didn't have to "work" another day of your life. I once heard a multi-millionaire state that, "money brings out with clarity, that which is inside you."  If you love to watch football with a passion, then having loads of money would...

Ya know...  After reading this through, with the previous chapters I've read in mind, I think I'm understanding a bit more about what Abinadi is talking about. The wicked priests quote him the scripture in Isaiah which says that prophets are supposed to proclaim peace in order to basically tell Abinadi off, because he was definitely not proc...

Wow... Three entries in a matter of a couple of hours.  I guess I've got a lot to write. A couple months back, I wrote about a pet-peeve of mine.  Has to do with a phenomenon whereby people claim something doctrinal which really has very little, if any, doctrinal basis at all. Well... I believe I remembered something else which just might...

Okay...  So this chapter wasn't brimming with the deep doctrines of the Gospel, but it did have a few nuggets. I would absolutely love to see some sort of diagram of exactly what the Nephites did to build up their cities.  I have so many ideas in my head of what it could have been, but to what extent that's true, I have no idea.  I...