Tue - May 15, 2001 : 11:36 am
no mood
Rock-star Dreams
As an adolescent I had a dream...
I had a dream of becoming a drummer for a rock-band. I was told that this dream probably would not come true due to the large amount of people trying to do the same thing and that the odds were definitely against me.
Well... Lately in my life I have had the opportunity to be a part of two rock bands. One of them being 'Third Person' and the other being 'Iron Rod'. Third Person has already disbanded due to people going their separate ways, graduating from college and so forth. With Third Person, we went to various stake dances and threw various concerts - all of which were received with intermediate to very mild enthusiasm by the crowd.
Iron Rod, however, is an entirely different boat. I have been practicing twice a week (almost without fail) with Iron Rod (Staten Medsker being the main person of this band) now for about 6 months. We have progressed a lot and tightened our routine greatly in this time. During this time, we have recruited various band members to join us, and many have come and gone. At this time, however, there are 5 members, 4 of which are dead-serious about making this project work.
The sounds we are making are beautiful, and everyone who hears us who enjoys the type of hard-rock we play, say they would buy our album in a heart-beat. Well.... It looks like this dream is coming true.......but....
About 3 months ago I met a young lady named Stephani Jones. I went out with her, enjoyed her presence, personality, and standards thoroughly. We fell in love and we have been engaged now for around 2 months. I intend to marry Stephani Jones and create a family built on Celestial principles with her. I love her more and more each day and want nothing but to make her happy and feel successful in life. Now......
Let's put the two together and see what we come up with. I can genuinely see Iron Rod becoming famous to the extent that we travel most of each day of the week, with weekends to spare. We could make money doing what we're doing. I've invested a half a year into this endeavor expecting nothing to happen with it, but to improve my percussion abilities and generally have a good time. That I have done.... Now I feel as though I'm over-stepping the boundaries of the blessings with which the Lord has blessed me.
I feel in my heart that continuing with Iron Rod will in some way hinder future blessings from coming - or, if it doesn't hinder blessings from coming, it will put me into situations of a lot of temptation. Temptation which I won't want to be a part of.
I feel right now that it would be in my best interest to seriously consider dropping Iron Rod before we get any deeper, but at the same time I feel as though I'm letting a dream of mine go away... A dream a lot of people have, but very few will ever realize. The music we play is hard.... Harder than I would like it to be, but the lyrics are beautiful and very uplifting. I realize that most of that is just rationalization and justification, but......man this is a tough one! I must trust in the Lord and do what he asks..... I've just got to be sure of what he asks...
And... that's about it! That's about all I've got right now... I'll talk to ya later..
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