Ok, I'm all confused! Theres this boy, he's a year older then me and majorly hott!  About a year I met him and fell for him :-) as girls do lol but this guy was somthing... something amazing he was perfect, I'm only 15 but I knew how perfect he was. Well we e-mailed everyday and he called me a few times. But he gose to school and leavs kinda ...

My best friend ever, She's more like a sister then a friend. She's kinda like the only friend I have here. I don't mean here here as in on this site, I mean like where I live. And she lives about 5 hours away from me. Well she's moving to this really really far away place, far enough I wont ge to see her again! I miss her so much..... But I'm worr...

WOW, feels like forever since I last came in here to write. My comp crashed and just now got back up. For now....  I am really glad that I've been able to talk to Christine, she's a really great girl!  I signed up for a website she sent me. I'm going to try and find her LOL I had a lot to write, but just don't feel much like doing it a...

Well today has been ok. I've spent most of it playing with my brothers, but later on in the night I came onto the computer to find something I never expected! I found that my new friend CMT_Music_Awards she said things I'll never forget, made me cry. I was suppost when I read what she said. I think she said she's only 11, she seems to be such a s...

Here is another one of my poems, seems like all I do is write :-) This is one is not like my others, because this one is kinda happy. I think...... I wrote it back in December about how I felt about this guy, I was hiding from how I felt about him. So this is what I wrote. I can't let myself feel like this! It's so ridiculous, I find I'm always ...

I told you I love you, And yet you broke my heart. you had to run around, Behind my back! Now I'm sitting here, I can't think of anyonelse! But the one thing rings in my head, Why was I never good enough for you? How come I'm alone? I wanted to give you my heart, But you just can't be true, Can you? Now your running around, Trying to m...

Well today my maw had this big Womens class about an hour away from here. So me and my family took her up there and we spent the few hours at the mall :-) We don't go to the mall to much cuz it's so far away! But I ain't t so sure I like it all that much, I ain't a people person my self. But it's ok some times. While I was there some very funny thi...

I can't believe this. Evansence my all time favorite band the band I LOVE, I heard someting from them today that I never thought would happen. I got a cd that I've wanted today, got it home and started listing to it. Then I heard Amy Lee say the f word! "That's not right!" I thought to my self 'cuz Evansence don't cus. So I jumped on line...

It's a new day, And so I must fight. Fight for my right live! As time gose on, I know my suffering will be small. But why must I stuggle at all? Time will go on, And soon I'll be, Just another scar on your heart. Am I so  alone? My sadness and pain, I'll never show. But will time go on for me? Can there be light behind my sorrow...

Today has been ok I guess.. My Maw and I stayed in the house all day and cleaned, while the boys worked in the yard. I hate "womens work"!!!! I rather be out side, but of corse I can't. I'm tired!!! Tomorrow I'm suppost to skip out stake sports day and  go with my Maw to this womens class thingy, I'm hoping that some one I know fr...

Well today has been ok. I've spent most of it playing with my brothers, but later on in the night I came onto the computer to find something I never expected! I found that my new friend CMT_Music_Awards she said things I'll never forget, made me cry. I was suppost when I read what she said. I think she said she's only 11, she seems to be such a s...

I can't believe this. Evansence my all time favorite band the band I LOVE, I heard someting from them today that I never thought would happen. I got a cd that I've wanted today, got it home and started listing to it. Then I heard Amy Lee say the f word! "That's not right!" I thought to my self 'cuz Evansence don't cus. So I jumped on line...

WOW, feels like forever since I last came in here to write. My comp crashed and just now got back up. For now....  I am really glad that I've been able to talk to Christine, she's a really great girl!  I signed up for a website she sent me. I'm going to try and find her LOL I had a lot to write, but just don't feel much like doing it a...

Here is another one of my poems, seems like all I do is write :-) This is one is not like my others, because this one is kinda happy. I think...... I wrote it back in December about how I felt about this guy, I was hiding from how I felt about him. So this is what I wrote. I can't let myself feel like this! It's so ridiculous, I find I'm always ...

SO I've always wannted to go to Rcks ( BYU IDAHO) well two more years and I'm so there. I got my PA to help me find info about it, today I had a pack from the collage come in the mail. I was so exited! The best part it, Sara is also planning on going that same time I am! That would be the best thing to ever happen to me.  I mean Sara is my ...

Well today my maw had this big Womens class about an hour away from here. So me and my family took her up there and we spent the few hours at the mall :-) We don't go to the mall to much cuz it's so far away! But I ain't t so sure I like it all that much, I ain't a people person my self. But it's ok some times. While I was there some very funny thi...

Okay so two years ago this guy that I was so inlove with, kissed a chick right in front of me at Youth Confrence right.  That hurt  me a lot, but I let him go, but then he found me in a web site and and started talking to me, then his best friend (who is really cute) starts hitting on me and being all flirty and stuff, last night I went t...

Today has been ok I guess.. My Maw and I stayed in the house all day and cleaned, while the boys worked in the yard. I hate "womens work"!!!! I rather be out side, but of corse I can't. I'm tired!!! Tomorrow I'm suppost to skip out stake sports day and  go with my Maw to this womens class thingy, I'm hoping that some one I know fr...

So Anyone ever heard of Paul Michael Glaser? He is like the best actor! Well next to Johnny Depp. But any way my Pa loves him, in high school he and his best friend were called "Starsky and Hutch" because they acted so much like the real Starsky and hutch. My PA was Starsky, and to this day is called that! he owns all the old tv shows on ...

OK girls camp is coming up fast. I have had a hard time with my Young womens teachers, The two I have a rearlly hard time with are not going, well one is. We have this fund raiser to get the money for camp, I'm  going to auction off what I'm best at :-) LOL! I'm doing two reflexioalgy foot massages each is an hour. My hands are gonna die B-) B...

The Powwow was great. Just what I needed, I spent a lot of time thinking and relaxing and getting over all the offel things that've happend! I danced and with each step I released my pain. It was truely amazing, but that's not what I want to talk about.. Not yet any way! So this is how my story starts right, fridaynight I set up camp and then sa...

Church tonight was really good. I think every leader asked me tonight is something was wrong, I'm not a people person and they all know that, I did kinda wish that they would stop asking. But I let it go and told them everything was fine, and did the things I was asked and after church I went to sit by the car. And my ex did not bother me :-0 The l...

I've been reading Matthew in seminary and have been understanding things so much better. My teacher has us write down what jumped out out at us and tell why, so I've been doing it and have learned a lot about myself! Each week I give him my papers and he reads them and gives them back, he writes notes on the side and tells me what he things about i...

So, about 9 months ago I finshed my personal progress. It felt amazing to have done it! Sunday at our Fireside they called me up infront of everybody, keep in mind theres a few hundred people there. Once I got up there they handed me a letter and told me how proud they all were.... So I go back and sit with my friends and brother!  I got hom...

This weekend is a powwow, everybody knows I'm gonna be there! I'll be dacning until my legs give out, then I'll dance some more! Fancy shawl isthe BEST kinda of dance, I 'm  so able to be me and to be free , the feeling of the wind  in my hair as I bounce of the ground.... It almost feels like heaven! This year knowing no was likely to ...

Well I never thought it would a big Christmas because our family has never really had a big one any ways. I started off trying my best to bring the Christmas cheer to others ( something I never do) but I upset and just couldn't make anybody happy. All my family really wanted was snow, we've not seen snow in so long. My two little brothers have neve...

Okay so two years ago this guy that I was so inlove with, kissed a chick right in front of me at Youth Confrence right.  That hurt  me a lot, but I let him go, but then he found me in a web site and and started talking to me, then his best friend (who is really cute) starts hitting on me and being all flirty and stuff, last night I went t...

Well today my maw had this big Womens class about an hour away from here. So me and my family took her up there and we spent the few hours at the mall :-) We don't go to the mall to much cuz it's so far away! But I ain't t so sure I like it all that much, I ain't a people person my self. But it's ok some times. While I was there some very funny thi...

It's a new day, And so I must fight. Fight for my right live! As time gose on, I know my suffering will be small. But why must I stuggle at all? Time will go on, And soon I'll be, Just another scar on your heart. Am I so  alone? My sadness and pain, I'll never show. But will time go on for me? Can there be light behind my sorrow...

So today has been about like my normal day..... But Johnny Depp's last post to me has left me kinda sad! Talking to him has been rough on me, 'cuz teh most famous person I talk to is the stake pres. But Johnny is a huge movie star and having him talk to me is kinda hard. My hands don't work when I try to reply to him, I can't spell, and what do I e...