Sun - Dec 09, 2012 : 10:00 am
So... I don't even know where to begin. Honestly, my life is so full right now, I feel as though I might decide to curl up into a remote corner of the world somewhere and hide for a few months. That said, each day I seem to manage to get up with a renewed strength to attack the day's duties with a renewed vigor.
Even though it's cliché to say, I can't think of any way to better express that my life has never been as full as it is right now. I don't remember a time when I couldn't sleep due to not being able to shut down the neverending list of things that needs to be done. I feel like I'm being pulled in too many directions by too many things and people.
Yet, as I type that, I can't help but feel like an absolute hypocrite. The things that are pulling me are things such as, family, my children, church, music, opportunities to make money, building a gorgeous new home, and fulfilling my life-long dream. Yup, I'm a hypocrite. I'm a whiner, and I deserve to fail ten-times-over due to my even thinking about typing the aforementioned paragraphs.
But, I've gotta keep myself real, and keep myself happy and healthy. The stress in my life right now is nothing more than not having enough time to do those things which are important to me. There simply isn't enough time. So, please indulge me in a bit more whining and hypocrisy, if you would be so kind.
I need to finish this studio, people! I want to play my drums and record good music again so badly, I'm afraid the music in my soul is going to explode out of my veins! And that would be very messy! I want to move into our new home so bad, I'm almost willing to sleep in a cot in the cold basement of it and freeze myself until it's finished! I want to play with my kids more, I want to date my beautiful wife more, I want to write in my journal more!
But, alas, there are only 24 blasted hours in a day, and I have to sleep at least a little bit. Oh, well.
With all the complaining, the only thing of substance I can really do is be grateful. All I need to do is stop for a few seconds, amidst the whirlwind of my life and think about the things going on, and I'm almost immediately overcome by an awareness of the seas of blessings which surround me almost constantly, not to mention the tidal-wave of even more which are coming at me quickly.
I've just got to keep going, keep praying, and keep pausing for moments of reflection. This brief transistionary chapter of my life will soon be closing, and then I'm sure I'll be even more busy with things I love.
I'd love to write more, but I've gotta get my family ready for church now. It was fun typing again, if only for a few moments.
The next time I write, I'll probably be living in our new home.