Oh wow. Man, life just keeps getting more and more interesting... along with frustrating, slightly scary, and faith-promoting. I won't get into the details here, though, because I want to talk about something else.
One thing which came at me as quite intriguing today during church was the concept of "Doctrine of Gratitude". We were having a great discussion in gospel doctrine about the gifts of the spirit, when a scripture was read (I don't know where it is right now, but I'll be sure to find it, and blog about it later) which basically stated that we are commanded to be grateful for all blessings we receive. I believe it was in D&C 46. Ah heck, I'll look it up right now. Yup.. D&C 46:32
Anyway... That caused me to wonder what exactly would the "Doctrine of Gratitude" be (yes, I'm making it up, but I'm sure there is doctrine found and specific blessings given for those who consistently give thanks). I'll probably do some studying on that tomorrow. Maybe. Work is getting dicey, so, who knows what I'll get done.
The 2nd point I'd like to make is something I've found myself praying for lately, which I know I'll be glad I wrote in my journal later on, after this "year of pain" is over.
Work for me, now, is basically me doing something I really, really, really would rather not do, but am being forced to do. I get paid well for what I do, have loved the company I work for, and have been very, very happy, and blessed, to be where I've been the past 2 years, but all that is changing now. I still have yet to know exactly where I'll be or what I'll be doing in the foreseeable future - but I'm hopeful.
Anyway... Due to these circumstances, I've had a couple of really potent "heart-to-heart" chats with my Heavently Father. Probably more than I've had in such a short period of time, for quite some time.
The thing which I found interesting is not the frequency which I pray, but rather the topic - the specific topic - for which I am praying.
Those who have established a personal relationship with God will know that when things get tough, your prayers seem to be prayed more through inspiration than through actual thought coming from withing oneself. It's as if God is granting the very words and thoughts of the prayer.
Anyway... That has been happening a lot with me lately, and I have found, on multiple instances within the past 3 months, myself praying over and over for help in "doing what needs to be done to protect my family."
It seems that this is quite important to both me, and God.
Now for most people - for themselves, this isn't news. Most people already have this in mind. I, however, am weird. I usually pray for things which have to do with me, specifically, and pray more generally for my family. Right now, however, the main topic of almost every sincere personal prayer I have with God, has to do with specifically doing whatever needs to be done to keep my family safe.
Anyway... I know it's personal, but that's just the way this blog goes. It's more of a journal than a blog. Those who don't care much about this stuff have already stopped reading this entry by now, anyway.
Take care, ya'll, and it'll be as interesting to me, as it is to you, to find out how, exactly, this situation will be resolved. This week could prove to be quite pivotal.