I haven't been getting much sleep lately... So I think I'll write about.... something. I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to write about, but it's been much too long since I've written to continue not writing any longer.
I found this link
today, given to me by this dude
. It's a great theme for a blog, and I hope it goes far.
Hmm.... What other ramblings can I submerge my brain in today? A poem, maybe?
Like rain, fell my body from the grasp of reality as I felt my mind go dark.
No more pain, no more sorrow.
I engulfed myself in the sensation and found myself smiling, finally. Although the stain of past years may never bleed away, for this moment, I am free.
Unwillingly, I found myself looking down as I felt everything melt away...
...at last... I'm free.
I have no idea where that came from. Kind of dark for the type of mood I'm in. Right now, I'm as happy as a hairball.
It might have come from the books I've been reading lately. Oh... hehe... For those of you who don't know, I believe the last time I read for pleasure was back about a month before I met Sarah, my wife, 5 and a half years ago. It was a book called "A Child Called It", by Dave Pelzer.
Well... I recently bought the other two sequels called, "The Lost Boy", and "A Man Named Dave", both by Dave Pelzer, and right now I'm about half-way through the latter.
I'm amazed that someone could treat someone that badly. Basically, the books are about Dave's journey through living as his mom's prisoner, her beating him within an inch of his life on a daily basis from the age of 4 until age 12, and him overcoming it and becoming an adult... It's quite a dramatic book, but I love it. Keeps life real...
Because heaven knows, I've had, compared to others, a life blessed way beyond what I deserve.
I've often pondered why I think that is. Why I seem to always get the upper-crust in life.... I think it's two things (from the top of my head, with absolutely no forethought on the subject): Attitude and Gratitude.
Yup... I'm fairly certain that a person in my exact location in life could
be hating his or her life right now, whereas I love it. It's all about attitude (or perception, as my good friend Scott and I talk about regularly)...
The gratitude portion simply comes from a scripture I know to be true: D&C 78:19
, which says:
And he who receiveth all things with athankfulness shall be made glorious; and the things of this earth shall be added unto him, even an bhundred fold, yea, more.
Yup... If the scriptures really are true, and I believe them wholeheartedly to be such, then that right there is one of the main reasons, along with attitude, that I enjoy my life so much.
Hmm.... what else can I blabber on about?
I've got another LAN party coming up this weekend (tomorrow), and I'm so freakin' stoked about it... It should be an absolute riot. We're going up to Shane's house in Perry, UT to get the action on, and man, am I ready for some ACTION! Awww yeah, brother... Some serious Enemy Territory: Quake Wars action. Action that means I'm up all night long honing my skills as a homicidal maniac bringing death and destruction with every turn.
hehe... I love that game.
That's about it for now.