Tue - Nov 20, 2007 : 04:48 pm
Life as Usual
Beyond yesterday's post, I haven't posted anything in awhile. I guess it's because nothing really interesting has happened lately.
My kids are growing like weeds, and I try to enjoy them when want to, and I'm trying to want to more often. That's kind of a sad statement, but I don't believe I am a "born-to-parent" type of guy. I do, however, realize more and more how important it is to forget myself and my wants and do what needs to be done. My kids need a good dad. They've already got a stellar mom, but dad could use a little work.
Anyway... Life is generally good, and although I haven't been doing anything which rouses my passion for geeky things, or fast cars, or DRM, or anything else...
...I have been thinking a lot lately about life in general.
I often wonder why I do what I do. For 8 hours each day, 5 days a week, I sit in front of a computer trying to create programs which help a wonderful company through technology. I really want this company to succeed. I love working here, and I love my work, but I often wonder how exactly I got here.
I guess I've always been interested in computers. That's completely true and documented. However, I ..... I really don't see myself working at my true potential. Let me explain:
I personally think the greatest thing you can do in this life is to make sure you and your loved ones are okay in the next life.
Because of this belief, I also believe that what I am doing now for my full-time job doesn't have much to do with the real meaning of life. Yes, I'm helping Nature's Way to reach its goals, and in turn they are helping me live a life of comfort beyond what I thought would be possible a mere 5 years ago... But that doesn't drown out the belief I have that there is something more important that can be done.
What is it? I really don't know at this point. I'll most likely be employed here at Nature's Way for a long, long time. Maybe my gut feeling is due to other factors... Heaven knows if I had to be a full-time dad right now, I'd go completely out of my mind. But, that doesn't mean I'll feel the same way in a year.
Anyway... Enough rambling.
I just thought and have been thinking that it's kind of crazy what life throws at ya.
Heh... In college, I purposefully did not choose computer science to be my major because I did not want to spend 8 hours a day in front of computer...
Indeed... Kind of crazy what life throws at ya.