Man... When, at the beginning of this year, I wrote that 2009 was gonna be a doozie, I didn't know the half of it.
After having been employed for only a month, two days ago, Monday, at 5:00pm, my superior came in to my office and told me, with a red face, that they had to let me go. The red face was undoubtedly due to the fact that nobody enjoys doing that sort of thing. "Things are too tight", he said, and then, as he was necessarily hovering over me, I formatted my computer, packed my things, and that was that.
For those of you who have been following my posts, this may come as a shock, as many posts I have recently written have spoken of the spiritual confirmation that both me and my wife have received concerning my employment there.
This one is usually a toughy, but I've come to realize through many life experiences, that God has His
way of doing things. God's way of doing things more often than not, comes as a shock to our way of doing things. Does this mean the two are incompatible? I believe that wholly depends on whether or not you believe God really is at the helm of our lives.
I look at this situation from the following perspective.
I have no doubt at all that it was God's will that I leave Nature's Way and take the offer given me by Conexm. I felt strongly (as did my wife) after taking the offer and beginning my employment, that I was doing exactly what I needed to be doing. Neither Sarah nor I felt easy about my employment there, as it was very stressful, and things never felt like they settled into a groove. Nevertheless, and notwithstanding the bumpiness of life as I was employed there, I always felt that "this is where I am supposed to be".
So, some may ask, "Why the termination? Why would God tell you to go somewhere where he knew almost immediate termination would result?"
My response is this. Yes, it was extremely nerve-racking and difficult, to say the least, to hear the news of my termination. Given the current economic situation of our family, being unemployed is definitely not something which will make our lives any easier. Holy moly, no. But, can I discredit the confirmation both Sarah and I received? Is it void now? I might answer yes, if during my employment there, I had given them any reason of my own doing to terminate me. I gave my all, I did my best, I worked my hardest.
So, in essence, since I don't know what will happen 1 month, 1 week, or even 1 day from right now, I still firmly believe that God is still at the helm of my life, and I am going to do everything I can to find His will in all this. In doing so, I believe that since God's work and glory
is to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of his children, and I also believe that man is here on earth to have joy
. If you put those two together, one can only come to the conclusion that if we follow God's will, he will direct us both to have joy, and to eternal life. Right now, I'm not having a whole lot of joy, persay, but I still am at peace with my current situation, and will continue to do my part.
So... Yeah.. I guess this essay was a long-winded approach to saying, "I'm now unemployed, but I haven't lost hope."
Hooray! I get to sleep in!