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Kaboom!
Man... When, at the beginning of this year, I wrote that 2009 was gonna be a doozie, I didn't know the half of it.
After having been employed for only a month, two days ago, Monday, at 5:00pm, my superior came in to my office and told me, with a red face, that they had to let me go. The red face was undoubtedly due to the fact that nobody enjoys doing that sort of thing. "Things are too tight", he said, and then, as he was necessarily hovering over me, I formatted my computer, packed my things, and that was that.
For those of you who have been following my posts, this may come as a shock, as many posts I have recently written have spoken of the spiritual confirmation that both me and my wife have received concerning my employment there.
This one is usually a toughy, but I've come to realize through many life experiences, that God has His way of doing things. God's way of doing things more often than not, comes as a shock to our way of doing things. Does this mean the two are incompatible? I believe that wholly depends on whether or not you believe God really is at the helm of our lives.
I look at this situation from the following perspective.
I have no doubt at all that it was God's will that I leave Nature's Way and take the offer given me by Conexm. I felt strongly (as did my wife) after taking the offer and beginning my employment, that I was doing exactly what I needed to be doing. Neither Sarah nor I felt easy about my employment there, as it was very stressful, and things never felt like they settled into a groove. Nevertheless, and notwithstanding the bumpiness of life as I was employed there, I always felt that "this is where I am supposed to be".
So, some may ask, "Why the termination? Why would God tell you to go somewhere where he knew almost immediate termination would result?"
My response is this. Yes, it was extremely nerve-racking and difficult, to say the least, to hear the news of my termination. Given the current economic situation of our family, being unemployed is definitely not something which will make our lives any easier. Holy moly, no. But, can I discredit the confirmation both Sarah and I received? Is it void now? I might answer yes, if during my employment there, I had given them any reason of my own doing to terminate me. I gave my all, I did my best, I worked my hardest.
So, in essence, since I don't know what will happen 1 month, 1 week, or even 1 day from right now, I still firmly believe that God is still at the helm of my life, and I am going to do everything I can to find His will in all this. In doing so, I believe that since God's work and glory is to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of his children, and I also believe that man is here on earth to have joy. If you put those two together, one can only come to the conclusion that if we follow God's will, he will direct us both to have joy, and to eternal life. Right now, I'm not having a whole lot of joy, persay, but I still am at peace with my current situation, and will continue to do my part.
So... Yeah.. I guess this essay was a long-winded approach to saying, "I'm now unemployed, but I haven't lost hope."
Hooray! I get to sleep in!
After having been employed for only a month, two days ago, Monday, at 5:00pm, my superior came in to my office and told me, with a red face, that they had to let me go. The red face was undoubtedly due to the fact that nobody enjoys doing that sort of thing. "Things are too tight", he said, and then, as he was necessarily hovering over me, I formatted my computer, packed my things, and that was that.
For those of you who have been following my posts, this may come as a shock, as many posts I have recently written have spoken of the spiritual confirmation that both me and my wife have received concerning my employment there.
This one is usually a toughy, but I've come to realize through many life experiences, that God has His way of doing things. God's way of doing things more often than not, comes as a shock to our way of doing things. Does this mean the two are incompatible? I believe that wholly depends on whether or not you believe God really is at the helm of our lives.
I look at this situation from the following perspective.
I have no doubt at all that it was God's will that I leave Nature's Way and take the offer given me by Conexm. I felt strongly (as did my wife) after taking the offer and beginning my employment, that I was doing exactly what I needed to be doing. Neither Sarah nor I felt easy about my employment there, as it was very stressful, and things never felt like they settled into a groove. Nevertheless, and notwithstanding the bumpiness of life as I was employed there, I always felt that "this is where I am supposed to be".
So, some may ask, "Why the termination? Why would God tell you to go somewhere where he knew almost immediate termination would result?"
My response is this. Yes, it was extremely nerve-racking and difficult, to say the least, to hear the news of my termination. Given the current economic situation of our family, being unemployed is definitely not something which will make our lives any easier. Holy moly, no. But, can I discredit the confirmation both Sarah and I received? Is it void now? I might answer yes, if during my employment there, I had given them any reason of my own doing to terminate me. I gave my all, I did my best, I worked my hardest.
So, in essence, since I don't know what will happen 1 month, 1 week, or even 1 day from right now, I still firmly believe that God is still at the helm of my life, and I am going to do everything I can to find His will in all this. In doing so, I believe that since God's work and glory is to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of his children, and I also believe that man is here on earth to have joy. If you put those two together, one can only come to the conclusion that if we follow God's will, he will direct us both to have joy, and to eternal life. Right now, I'm not having a whole lot of joy, persay, but I still am at peace with my current situation, and will continue to do my part.
So... Yeah.. I guess this essay was a long-winded approach to saying, "I'm now unemployed, but I haven't lost hope."
Hooray! I get to sleep in!
Comment by John on Jun. 17, 2009 @ 03:04 pm
Seriously? You're still buying into this "god has a plan" thing? Turns out strong "spiritual confirmation" doesn't mean much. I suggest you spend your free time to read "The God Delusion", "Breaking the Spell", "The End of Faith" and "God is Not Great".
Good luck learning from this experience by shaking off the shackles of uncritical thought.
Good luck learning from this experience by shaking off the shackles of uncritical thought.
Comment by Hailey on Jun. 17, 2009 @ 05:01 pm
You are AMAZING!!! I know things will work out for you guys! I am sorry to hear the bad news though! It is never easy!! We will help in any way we can, just say the word!!!! You are a never ending example to me with your faith and outlook on life! I know the Lord will bless you for your true determination! Love ya!!
Comment by bR3n+ on Jun. 17, 2009 @ 10:04 pm
Wow! Here's what people without faith in God don't get: Peace of mind. It's not about whether bad things happen to good people. It's knowing that when bad things happen, that's not the end. "All things work together for good for those who love God." (Not a direct quote, can't even remember what book of scripture it's in. You'll find it.)
Comment by PoeticIntensity on Jun. 17, 2009 @ 10:27 pm
Thanks, Hailey and Brent for your support. Brent, your quote is good, and not only for one scripture, but three. Good on-ya, bro.
John. I'm not entirely sure where the elitism comes from in your comment, but from the sound of it, it sure sounds you have life figured out. Your "turns out strong spiritual confirmation doesn't mean much" sounds like you've got some proof to show me. As far as my knowledge and experience goes, I don't know many people who can see the future, to make such a claim. The manner in which you claim to know that God has no plan intrigues me, yet baffles me in much the same way my faith seems to baffle you. The difference is, I don't show the same distain for your way of life as you seem to hold for mine. I don't degrade your self-proclaimed superior skills in critical thinking due to your disbelief in God as you have mine. Truth be told, belief in God really has nothing to do with critical thinking skills. If temporal success means anything, I'm sure we both could find extremely successful people who both believe and disbelieve in God.
To end, I simply say, to each his own, and may you take some thought as to your boldness in speech beforehand in the future. The world isn't any better due to people attacking each other simply for his or her belief or disbelief in God.
John. I'm not entirely sure where the elitism comes from in your comment, but from the sound of it, it sure sounds you have life figured out. Your "turns out strong spiritual confirmation doesn't mean much" sounds like you've got some proof to show me. As far as my knowledge and experience goes, I don't know many people who can see the future, to make such a claim. The manner in which you claim to know that God has no plan intrigues me, yet baffles me in much the same way my faith seems to baffle you. The difference is, I don't show the same distain for your way of life as you seem to hold for mine. I don't degrade your self-proclaimed superior skills in critical thinking due to your disbelief in God as you have mine. Truth be told, belief in God really has nothing to do with critical thinking skills. If temporal success means anything, I'm sure we both could find extremely successful people who both believe and disbelieve in God.
To end, I simply say, to each his own, and may you take some thought as to your boldness in speech beforehand in the future. The world isn't any better due to people attacking each other simply for his or her belief or disbelief in God.
Comment by Will on Jun. 18, 2009 @ 03:37 pm
Jason,
Sorry to hear about your troubles with Conexm. That is actually the reason I found your blog/journal. I did a seach on Conexm and its owner Alma Tuck. I have heard a few things about their company and I'd be interested to hear your take on things. What was Alma like? Is this a company that I would want to get involved with? Please advise me if you can. Thanks and best of luck to you in the future.
Will
Sorry to hear about your troubles with Conexm. That is actually the reason I found your blog/journal. I did a seach on Conexm and its owner Alma Tuck. I have heard a few things about their company and I'd be interested to hear your take on things. What was Alma like? Is this a company that I would want to get involved with? Please advise me if you can. Thanks and best of luck to you in the future.
Will
Comment by PoeticIntensity on Jun. 18, 2009 @ 07:36 pm
Thanks for your inquiry, Will. First and foremost, I hold no ill will at all toward Alma, or anyone currently affiliated with Conexm. They are all striving to make Conexm successful. I feel they were justified in laying me off simply because I wasn't up to snuff on the OOP principles applied at Conexm with PHP. I've been programming procedurally for the past 5 years, so learning OOP is a tough pill to swallow when they're paying me top-dollar to already know it. It was extremely stressful, but I don't fault anyone for what happened.
As far as your considering employment there, I would actually highly recommend it. If they could have afforded me, and I were an expert in OOP PHP, I would definitely still be working there, and enjoying it. It's a fast-paced environment where work is overflowing. If you're not shy to high-risk environments, with a high potential for a great payoff, I would certainly dive in.
I hope that answers your questions.
As far as your considering employment there, I would actually highly recommend it. If they could have afforded me, and I were an expert in OOP PHP, I would definitely still be working there, and enjoying it. It's a fast-paced environment where work is overflowing. If you're not shy to high-risk environments, with a high potential for a great payoff, I would certainly dive in.
I hope that answers your questions.
Comment by Will on Nov. 05, 2009 @ 05:04 am
Conexm is a shitty company I have heard from many people word of mouth.