Mon - Jun 04, 2007 : 05:18 pm
Is this move right?
Okay, people.... I'm here at Truenorth Academy and I just can't shake the feeling of anxiety I have of leaving this place. I'm gonna start my new job at Nature's Way, which by all intents and purposes, should be the job I have for the rest of my life. It pays fantastic, the people seem wonderful.... It's just that the people here at Truenorth are also pretty amazing.
The IT team I've worked with here for the past year and a half have been simply outstanding. The manager(s) I have are fantastic. They let me work at the pace I work best, and when the day's done - I've been 1000% more productive here than I have at any other job I've ever had. I just hate to leave it.
I wish the people here were meaner or.... demeaning - at all. Or..... Heck, I don't know. I just can't find many reasons (concerning the people I directly work with), to leave here. If I spend too much time thinking about the upper management here, I can find *many* reasons to leave. They don't know jack about the IT field. They take many things for granted (this excludes Jim, my manager.... in fact, if it weren't for his buffering and shielding us from the upper management, I probably would have quit a long time ago.) The size of this business has grown by an order of magnitude in less than a year, and the IT team has grown by 4 people, none of which have directly helped me with my job, except Scott. Craziness. Heck...
If I would have built the LMS (Lead Management System) any less robust than I did, I would have such the spaghetti code mess on my hands, I would quit - even if I didn't have any other job opportunities. It'd be disastrous. Anyway....
With all said and done, I'm pretty darned sad to leave here. Just typing that line creates a feeling of sadness within me I haven't felt in ..... I don't know how long. In fact, I've never felt this way about leaving a company of my own accord. When I think of the opportunity that lays a head of me, I get fairly excited, but when I think about leaving this company, I can't help but feel that I'm leaving friends... Leaving a business I've helped to grow. Leaving a company to which I have an emotional attachment. I didn't think this would happen. I'm fairly close to seeing what ..... no...
I was about to type "I'm fairly close to seeing what offer they'll give me here to stay", but mid sentence, I just get the feeling that it wouldn't be right. I've gotta leave... for more reason than one. It pains me to say that, but it's as undeniable as the feeling I had that I needed to go to California to make money, when I swore I'd never do it again.
That year I met my wife.
So... alas... another chapter in Jason Jones's history is about to turn for better or worse. I hope it's better. All things lead me to believe it'll be better, but it is still unknown, so all I can do it hope and pray. I know what I felt, and I know what I feel - and I know what I need to do.
So, as has been said before, "I will go and do."